There Are Still Days…

There are still days where I wake up late and don’t get out to exercise in the morning or at any other time of the day, planned or unplanned. There are still days where I would like to eat anything that doesn’t try to run away from me and the more sugar the better. There are still days, after more than a year of eating healthier and exercising regularly, where I’d like to throw in the towel and go back to my old ways. There are still days where the threat of gaining the weight back doesn’t have nearly as much of an impact as eating cake would. Today is one of those days. Maybe it’s hormonal or the time of the year or lack of sleep/stress. Who knows?

I would have hoped that after more than a year of a healthier lifestyle, the lure of empty calories and laziness would have gone away completely. But they haven’t. My old behaviors still lurk in the back of my consciousness just waiting for a weak moment to spring to the forefront and sabotage all of my hard work. I’ve learned to resist for the most part, but resisting doesn’t make the day any easier,  and it doesn’t make the desire go away.

This morning I did not get out to exercise. And tonight I have a fundraiser to attend so there will be little or no exercise there either. I’m ok with that. It can be a rest day.

I have a doctor’s appointment at lunch today, so I can’t do too much damage foodwise. I’ll be at work all day and I only brought good food with me to work. I’ll make it through the day; I’ll work hard to be strong tonight too. And hopefully, the evil urges will go away by tomorrow. They usually do.

And that’s the difference between then and now. Then, I would just cave. Now, I cope.

  • This morning, I tracked all of the food I plan to eat today. I find that that helps me to stay on track.
  • I decided to sleep in this morning. Sometimes, I find if I’m really tired, it’s harder to resist temptation.
  • I’m drinking lots of water. I do this anyway, but on days like this, I drink more because it helps to keep me feeling fuller.
  • I keep peppermint tic-tacs on hand. Nothing tastes very good after a mint (except for water) and for a little while they kill the cravings.
  • I will remind myself how much better I feel now than I did then.
  • I will blog about how I feel and count on the support of my online friends to pull me back.
  • And if I’m still feeling like I really need something off plan tonight, I will allow myself a small indulgence. I will not have lost the whole day and sometimes it’s ok to take a little break.

Tomorrow will be a better day. I find that my resolve is usually back after a day like this. And having managed this day makes me that much stronger going forward.

When you’ve lived a sedentary life of overeating for a long time, like I have, staying the fitness course is awfully fragile. But each day like this where I win the battle over the evil urges, the fitness side gains a little strength. It’s a long road, and it’s worth every step.


5 responses to this post.

  1. Even after twelve years of a healthier lifestyle, I still have to exercise self-control. That really makes a lot of people in my weight loss classes sad when I tell them that.

    You are doing great, and I know you will just continue to be successful!!


  2. Posted by Jeannie Porter on August 19, 2009 at 7:02 pm

    I feel the same way sometimes so again I can totally relate to your blog. I often think of a statement I heard Dolly Parton make once after she had a large weight loss, “There is a fat woman inside me begging to get out.” That statement makes me chuckle but it also makes me realize…that she is right. However, the slim new you is stronger that the person you use to be. You can and will win this battle! You are probably 85% there!

    Also, I have found that a few days before my menstrual cycle that I am hungrier…craving sweets more than ever. I have even found that psycologically I have more of a who cares attitude. It is a battle to overcome the urges; however, a battle that is winnable!

    You are doing great! Hang in there and keep us posted on your progress 🙂


  3. Yes, there are still days… I had such an irrational craving this afternoon, but I managed to talk myself down. Good for you for not losing faith in yourself!


  4. You acknowledge your desires and I think that’s important; we all have our days, our moments, whatever the timeframe is… hopefully, you are out having fun right now, as I sit here and write this message to you (according to your tweet a few hrs ago, you are??).

    Sending you ‘good vibes’ from Orlando!!! :o) Hear the song, “Good Vibrations” in your head when you’re feeling “off-track” – b/c they are being sent to you from down south! :o)

    I believe being healthy doesn’t mean we are always ‘perfect’ ….

    Take care, runner friend –

    p.s. – don’t you have a race coming up this week/weekend??? I’m a little behind in my reading this week, due to the flu, so forgive me if you’ve posted about it, and I missed it. Catching up these next couple of days…


    • Thank you for your good vibrations. I made it through the day until I got home and there was….PIZZA! Scarfed not one but two pieces, but it really wasn’t a disaster of a day. I did go to a fundraiser tonight and had lots of fun. I didn’t drink or eat anything there, so that was a success. I have my next race coming up in 3 weeks, Sept. 13. You’ll hear lots about it as it gets closer. Right now, I’m trying to forget I signed up to torture myself again at yet another one!


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